Shall I surrender back into the hollow of my heart and forget about the possibility of joy, and life, and love?
Shall I shutter my soul from the light of others?
What is it that makes me a failure in human connection?
How I wanted to embrace this hope, this chance at beauty and laughter.
It is my failure that brings my pain.
It is mine to embrace;
it is mine to nurture.
From here I shall retreat into my dark and empty existence.
I extend my deepest gratitude to a fate that follows me and reminds me that I indeed have nothing to offer.
From the depths of my being I relinquish my desire to do more than simply survive.
I apologize only to myself
for believing in that which I never deserved.
